A VERY QUICK VERSION OF WHAT HAPPENED, MY STORY ('02– '07): For those of you who are worried about the Law of Attraction and are trying to get into the rhythm of your life's desires, I have a story for you. It's a true story of what happened to me. For those of you who are not worried, this story may still interest you. I'm giving this information out even though I'm at risk of sounding like a crazy woman ~ I'll take that chance. (Crazy - a social stigma for people who experience life outside of the so-called "norm".)
Approximately six years ago, I was a very unhappy person who worked as a Registered Nurse under a lot of stress. I moved my family to Maine and we bought a little, old house (600 square feet total; needing a lot of work). We had 3 pugs, plus my husband and I, and a teenaged boy (300 sq feet upstairs/300 sq downstairs). Before the move, I was making $45.00 per hour as a nurse and double time for holidays, and $63.00 per hour overtime, plus bonus shift pay ranging from $50 - $150. My husband had a decent income too.
When I moved, I wanted to change something inside of me because I could not live in the sadness or anger anymore. Something was missing but I really didn't know what? I remember the day clearly; I looked out my window of my little home and said to God, "I am ready. I don't care what happens to me, God. I am ready to go where I need to go to change, to feel better and to love better. I'm not afraid." (anything would be better than what I was feeling inside).
Well, over the next 3 years a lot of unique coincidences happened and not all good (as I saw it then); too many to list but definitely something was going on that I couldn't ignore. To make a long story short, I'll give to you the basics:
My physical health went downward, my husband's health went downward (two surgeries), our finances were heading downward, cars breaking down, house falling apart, etc. The material world was taking a nose dive (when the material world was one of my 'ills' I wanted to get over). Then on top of that, I started hearing voices talking to me. Now, I thought, this is it... I am a crazy woman! I knew before I wasn't crazy. I never heard voices and I use to work for the sheriff's office and had to take a psychological exam; I passed with flying colors.
I will make the voice story short:
I would hear in my mind, sounding at a distance but still in my mind, bad things (very bad things) and then I would hear a different voice, very loving (saying really good things). I couldn't understand what was going on, why was I hearing all of this? It wasn't me. I was in observer mode to it and how in the heck did I open myself up too it? I was never really involved with Universal Knowledge or Religion. I never tried to communicate with another realm before (didn't really believe in it before moving to Maine). I basically lived a life on my own without guidance.
So one night, as I was driving home from work, I heard a voice say (this is true, all of it), 'I'm going to hurt you!' It sounded really mean. I got so scared, I started to cry and to shake. I thought, who is this? Are there aliens that can take me from my world? Well, I was afraid to get out of my van, I thought I would be zapped into another reality (world)! So I started to shout out (because I didn't know what else to do), "God if you are real, protect me!" And then I shouted, "Enlightened Beings of Love serving the purpose of love' where are you? If you are real, come to me now and help!!!" I don't know why I said 'Enlightened Beings of Love'… it just came out that way because I was very afraid.
They came! I started to hear them say, "You are safe. Go into your home and be with your family. No one will hurt you." It took a few minutes before I trusted what I was hearing (and to calm down). I got out of my van and went into my home and sat in my living room until the early morning. I spoke with them all night.
They asked me to listen to the negative voice again; to hear the statements again. I did. They then asked me who the voice sounded like, and I clearly heard and instantly recognized the voice ~ the vibrational patterning. The words I heard were from me. I allowed myself to say things that were not loving. Some of it was from this lifetime, and some of it I recognized as my voice but from another time, another life. I realized (through them), I said the negative things and the words were locked into my sub-conscious mind from the many lives I had lived on Earth. They were not from aliens or negative energies out there, it was what I had created through what I allowed in; and some of it was from what I watched - movies that were scary but registered in my subconscious mind. They asked me why I allowed myself to view something that didn't value life.
I'll shorten the story some more:
Basically what happened over this last three years of my life was a "clearing" of the negative voices and memories of all of my lifetimes. I had many flashes of why things happened the way it did through the many lifetimes. I was on a spiritual journey, a clearing house of junk that no longer served a purpose. I was becoming the butterfly.
I was also put in a position of where my finances were never the same during this time. My earning capacity was non-existent but I never suffered. The Universe took care of my family in many ways so we were never without. I had to learn to trust that we are always provided for. It was hard because sometimes the money was really low and the cupboards were bare, but then a blessing would come through (that we didn't expect!).